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Monday, October 04, 2004
My Life (Not Bill Clinton)
My Life
This entry will involve me assessing where I am in all the parts of my life, where I would like to see myself ultimately, and what steps I will do today in order to come closer to my goals, so that come tomorrow, I will be one step closer.
As a Bodybuilder, I am in my cutting stage. I'm currently at 11% bodyfat, and am working to get 7% by November 14th. I will continue doing my cardio sessions to burn off the fat. I will also eat well. Today, I will do my second cardio session today after work and will go to bed looking forward to waking up to my AM cardio session tomorrow.
As a Christian, I have not been readin my Bible, now have I been praying on a regular basis. Ultimately, I want to go into each part of the day with a "time-out" to talk to my Coach, God. Either it be before I tackle my morning cardio and chores, to going to work, to thanking Him for the food and everything else He has provided for me. Today, I will begin with short 1-minute prayers on the hour, just to get used to regualr "chatting / IMing" with God. I will also read Proverbs chapter 1 today, which explains how to gain wisdom and understanding, beginning with the fear of God.
As a worker, I've been pretty lackadaisical in my work, getting the bare minimum done. Ultimately I want to climb the corporate ladder, and be an established hard worker and leader that others look up to me and rely on my to get things done, and not only done, but completed far above and beyond others' expectations. Today I will clean and organize my cubical to help convey the aura of organization, and to help channel my energies into my work when work comes.
As a friend/relative, I've been keeping in touch with my immediate family on a daily basis, however, only once or twice a month with other realtives, and about the same with my friends. Ultimately, I would love to have a circle of friends that I may trust and help spur on to greater things, as well as them to me. Accountability and frienship is what I look for, as well as counseling and encouragement when I seek it (and to where I can provide). Today, I will call Mike, Erik, and both Ryans (I know who these people are, you don't need to know) :-P. I'll put in a good word of encouragement to them.
As me in my apt, it is a mess, with garbage and clothes everywhere. It's no where near the "Joe's apartment" environment, howeevr, still not clean. Ulitmately I would love to follow a system to where I will only have up to 1-days' worth of junk piled up. Today I will clean and organize my apt, as well as follow a ssyem: the system... before I go to bed each day, I will clean my pad. During this time, I will consider it cleaning time with God, as an added time to chat with God, as a friend and father, cleaning my pad (two bird with one stone).
All I have to do is write these to-do's down and cross them off as they happen! Tomorrow I shall update on my progress.
Mark
Posted at 10/4/2004 11:45:38 am by TheBojDotCom
Journaling helped me change!!!
Original Mood: Boredom
I don't understand why...
On any particular day, either at work or at home, with nothing too pressing needing to be done, I am bored and lonely, wanting to do something, sociallize, anything. I usually submit to going to the store (Walmart, Mall, etc) and just wondering around, not really shopping, unless of course I see something I like, then I'll carry it around for a while, only to re-convince myself that I don't really need it. I usually end up grabbing a 1/2 gallong of ice cream to top off my boredom.
And then...
On days in which I am parttaking in so many tasks, lots of things to do at work, or lots of chores and things to do at home... all of a sudden I have no time for anything. But you know what's really funny? It's during this time that I decide to do the things in which are not pressing.
Let me explain.
Saturday I was having a really boring day, in fact, it drove be to the crafts store to look for something to make. I ended up spending quite a bit of money on a sweet focal point in my room now, but on to where I actually ended up having something to do... I received an invitation to go a concert, a worship session at church, with this one singer/pianist Rita somethin. It was awesome, very touching, and she really had a heart for the Lord. So, during that time I wanted so much to just go home, alone, and pray to God, and have a deep one on one with Him, ya know?! I had lots of things that I needed to get off my mind, off my heart, and see where He wanted me to stand. So I get home, and go to bed. Sunday, same thing happens at church, I so want to leave the Sermon and go have a huge quiet time with God. What happens? I never go to Him, rather, I go get an ice cream and stare at the ceiling.
No, not a self-pitty "oh feel sorry for me" story, but something I want to find out about me. If there are any psychologists out there who want to diagnose me, go right ahead. But I really want to know why I want to do things "in the heat" and when there's nothing going on, I too resort to doing nothing.
 Maybe it's got to do with me not taking control of my life... meaning, I don't wake up every morning and create a to-do list I want to have completed that day. If I did, then maybe I could feel the "pressure" I enjoy for having to complete the items, and then I may reward myself at the end of the day upon completion. But if I don't follow that pattern, I will most likely vegetate and take things on as they fall on my plate.
Wow, do I sound so unmotivated, or what? I promise you (and I don't usually promise) :-) that my next entry is going to be a super-motivated, "Tony Robbins" type of an entry, where I am that type A go get 'em personality, the "Get 'er done" saying.
Realization
I actually came to a realization through this entry. This entry made me aware of my problem, the problem of allowing time to control me, versus me governing the clock. Ha! Eureka! Journalling is so great, is it not?
Welp, thanks for sticking with me. I hope you have realizations, too!
Mark
Posted at 10/4/2004 11:20:44 am by TheBojDotCom
Thursday, September 30, 2004
Wow, have I changed or what?
It's September 29th, 2004. I've been with my job for almost 6 months now, and I'm on the verge of completing my training (to be a can salesman). I might explain that later.
A quick reference list of things that have changed:
I've picked up bodybuilding.
I've become a great Arnold Schwarzenegger fan by buying his movies and books.
I don't have a girlfriend (not pursuing one at the moment).
I've considered becoming a certified personal trainer and opening up my own gym.
Well I guess that's not that great of a list as I thought it would be, but I know I changed more than that. Maybe I'm just too pumped with Nyquil to think clearly.
I've journaled oodles and oodles of pages and notes, mostly about physical fitness, diet, what I want to do with my life, goals, freams, worries, etc. It feels so great to just get it all out there in the open, off my mind. I guess my mind is currently thinking about way too many things to keep it focused in on one thing, so that's why this blog is very vague. I'll consider it a come-back blog, considering I've been gone since July (2+ months).
One last word:
JAIME!!!
Where are you?!?! Please e-mail me again, and I will continue trying to contact you. I am very happy that you decided to contact me, considering we had some great conversations back then. :-)
Lets see how long I go before another blog. Ha!
-
Mark
Posted at 9/30/2004 11:44:07 am by TheBojDotCom
Sunday, July 25, 2004
Hot and Juicy details - She was ALL OVER ME
She was All Over Me
So this girl was all over me, and I mean ALL OVER ME.... Before I get into the hot and juicy details, let me first update you from yesterday. You're gonna want to leave a comment once I'm done. ;-)
The following is an update from my previous journal entry. It is different areas of my life. Pretty much a self-assessment, or self-evaluation judging myself in how I'm doing in the different parts of my life. I need improvement in my spiritual, work, and nutrition areas. Using this blog will hopefully help me out. Skim through it, because it's tied in with THE GIRL...
Spiritual:
Read/meditated on God's Word? Not really.
Goal for tomorrow: Read Psalm 1 and Psalm 51
Prayed/pursued God with all my heart? Prayed deeply yesterday on my knees.
Goal for tomorrow: Continue to pray before I go to bed.
Fitness:
Ran today? Yep, twice at 3 miles ea.
Goal for tomorrow: Keep at it.
Lifted today? Nope, not my lift day
Goal for tomorrow: Delts, traps, and forearms.
Nutrition:
Ate 6 meals with protein? Yes
Cheated? Yep, ate ice cream late in the day, AGAIN.
Goal for tomorrow: (and for the rest of the week), no ice cream, low carb menu.
Work:
Worked on your report today? NOPE, still procrastinating.
Goal for tomorrow: Work at it with the determination and focus of an eagle going after its prey
Family:
Made contact? YES
Goal for tomorrow: None yet.
Friends:
Made contact? Nope
Goal for tomorrow: None yet. Gotta finish my report first.
Overall:
What's up? The lack of self-control is not that big of a temptation physically, it's more psychologically... as if I've formed bad habits that are just not easy to break out of. Well, I'm not eating ice cream now, so lets continue doing this! :-)
Goal for tomorrow: Excercise self-control... act as if it's a muslce, it just needs to be strengthened. Or just continue doing what I'm doing now. :-)
Just Bad Habits
I discovered some things today. I realized that the "bad habits" I carry are simply that, just bad habits. Not praying? Simply because I'm continuing to do what I have been... no change, no sweat. But I need to change. I never want to be complacent as I have begun to be in my relationship with God. Another bad habit is bingeing on ice cream. It's something that I've always done and indulged in, especially late in the day. It tastes so good and soothing and the flavors are great! Chocolate anything with fudge, brownie, peanut butter, choc. chunks, etc. I have yet to find a combination to which I think I would die for... that is, if I do continue to eat ice cream... Double chocolate ice cream (with fudge) and chunks of strawberries in there. I think that combination would be great. Maybe I will wait until I find that flavor combination for my next binge on ice cream,... well there's always Cold Stone's, but the super high costs lead to me keeping the profits for myself. NO DICE!
21 Days
So, about the habits... tonight will be day 2 of getting down on my knees and praying before I go to bed. It takes 21 days to form a habit, right? ;-) Tomorrow shall be day 1 of no ice cream.
ABOUT THE GIRL...
And about that girl that was "all over me".... Well it all started out this morning when I logged onto this blog. I saw that no one had replied on my comments area, and there were no notes left on my tag board. And I was not about to start bombing everybody's tag board with "Hey great blog! Check mine out!" I mean, c'mon. Like those people ever are sincere. Maybe some are, but for real, people.
So this girl comes up...
Anyway, so this girl comes up, and we're having some great ideas, synergistic moments between us. I figure the experience I had with this girl was good enough to share about on here and to receive some comments about it. Well, here goes...
Remember the movie Shawshank Redemption, how Andy conjured up a man out of thin air? Whelp, today I conjured this girl out of thin air, and the great idea behind it all was to use her as a hook for you to read my blog. Happy blogging!
--
Mark
PS I will not try and "cry wolf" like this too often. I just had to, though. ;-)
Posted at 7/25/2004 11:11:31 pm by TheBojDotCom
Ressurected
Yes, both the Lord Jesus Christ (some 2000 years ago) and me, after an absence that spanned the majority of most of this year. I decided to look up my old community on this blogdrive and see how things are going. It only took me a couple of minutes to look up a few people; shows how deeply involved I was in this community ;-)
Accountability
The reason I now appear to write an entry is a form of accountability. I have none as of now. I binge freely; a single serving of ice cream for me is a half-gallon. I've averaged at least 2 gallons of ice cream per week for the past 2-3 weeks. Not cool, but I guess that's where my excessive-compulsive behavior comes from -- I run twice a day, 3 miles each run. I lift 3-4 times per week. I would like to get into body-building, fitness competitions, or modeling. Yeah, and guess how guilty I feel after my ice cream binges? VERY! So, I'm writing on here, indirectly as a vow, but more for accountability. I live on my own, and because of my job, I live out of a hotel most of a time. This also means I get my meals expensed... openning the door of temptation to pig out, binge, etc.
Binging On Ice Cream
I strive for physical fitness, yet I struggle with my stupid binging on ice cream. I mean each container ranges from 1500 to 2500 calories, all in one sitting. I guess the extreme level of fitness I maintain throughout the week balances it out, but I must send my body through hell. I can't even imagine what happens on the insulin-level, how sky-high I make my blood-sugar levels soar. Other than those binging bad habits (mostly last meal of the day, perfect for carbo/fat loading before I go to bed, tell me about it), I eat great throughout the day. I mean the nutrition of a bodybuilder, the one where they eat 6 meals per day, each containing mainly protein, witht he carbs tapering off throughout the day. I look forward to the day where I've actually had 3 low-carb days in a row so that I can "carbo-load." This is the best way to lose fat and metabolize to the max.
If you've red this far, kudos to you. I'm now going to talk about a struggle which is far greater than my bad habit of binging on ice cream -- this is, my lack of pursuing my relationship with God.
GOD
That's right, I feel so lost and lonely, as if I want to talk to a psychologist, or my best friends at school, or anyone -- strangers even. It's sort of difficult, though, living on the road, hotels, etc. Realizing I want someone there to hear me out, my thoughts, desires, wants, etc... God is there, waiting for me to come ti Him. I feel so bad, but as a mere human I long for something tangible, something that I can tought, see, hear, etc. I love God, I know He exists, I know His promises and I see the changes He has done/is doing with me. But I am not surrendered to loving Him and seeking His kingdom and His righteousness first ( Matthew 6:33). For if I do those first, all other things will be given to me, including ( I imagine) my physique, career, woman, etc.
"God-shaped hole" in my heart
And binging is not the only thing. Usually I long for something, that "God-shaped hole" in my heart, which only God can fill. I try to fill it with everything but God, and always come short, empty, wanting something else. I do extreme physical training, and feel great, but want more. I eat great ice creams, the Edy's, Breyers, Deans, ice cream sandwitches, and even the fat-free/no sugar added kinds. Feels great during, but usually get sick, feel regret, and even did a bunch of research on purging. Never did. I think I have a small degree of anorexia nervosa, because I am so conscious of my image. But I've never turned bulemic, and don't plan on it; even after researching how to do it, ha!
I'm a planner
I write this knowing that no one is going to read it, at least not right away. It is, however, good medication to get it out in the open and pour my thoughts out. I am looking for answers, a way, a plan. I am very oreinted on systemmatic ways, planned out guides to do things. Sure, I "wing it" but deep down I'm a planner. What I want now is a plan, a feasible plan that I can follow, and that has a buffer for when I break the plan -- an allowance for mistakes.... The point is for continuous improvement. To be better tomorrow than I am today. And Better a week from now, as well as a year from now.
This is what I call success...
Again, I writie this as a tool for self-accountability. I love to self-asses / evaluate myself. To see where I stand, what flaws and problems I have now, how I can improve, what steps I am to take, and the ability to track my progress and keep me motivated to pursue my goal. This positive succession is what I call success -- the pursuit and progression of improvement. The "journey" of moveing up, not automatically, but through effort and conscientious decisions. That is what I call success.
So. What now?
Evaluation of the areas in my lfie. Spiritual life, fitness, nutrition, work, family, friends, overall.
Spiritual:
Read/meditated on God's Word? Nope.
Goal for tomorrow: Read Psalm 1 and Psalm 51
Prayed/pursued God with all my heart? Nope
Goal for tomorrow: Pray with a broken/humble heart on my knees
Fitness:
Ran today? Yep, twice at 3 miles ea.
Goal for tomorrow: Continue icing my foot
Lifted today? Nope, not my lift day
Goal for tomorrow: Take my creatine
Nutrition:
Ate 6 meals with protein? Yes
Cheated? Yep, ate ice cream late in the day
Goal for tomorrow: Resist the tempatation, and win tomorrow's battle (of temptation)
Work:
Worked on your report today? Nope
Goal for tomorrow: Finish my report by the time I go to bed. (Very high goal, but can be done, I believe)
Family:
Made contact? Nope
Goal for tomorrow: Try and call grandparents
Friends:
Made contact? Nope
Goal for tomorrow: Call best friend and catch up
Overall:
What's up? I lack self-control in most areas in my life, except physical fitness. I have many "red-marks" on my report for today. Some green fonts, but mainly red. Lets improve that for tomorrow.
Goal for tomorrow: Excercise self-control... act as if it's a muslce, it just needs to be strengthened.
There you have it, my first entry since I decided to come back. Quite a long one, but don't worry, it's a "first-time back" entry. The following ones will most likely me shorter. That's all for now. Thank you, those who have read this whole stinkin entry about my life and struggles.
Mark
Posted at 7/25/2004 1:21:11 am by TheBojDotCom
Friday, January 23, 2004
So, I have on my mind now to practice some more discipline. I hate wasting so much time doing nothing on the computer. I'll sepnd hours on here, and in the end all I have to say for it is, "I did some research." About what? Oh, motorcycles, how-to's, other blogs, chat, etc. I really don't like being a dead sea... everything flowing into me, and nothing flowing out. Hough.
My discipline practices? Eating habits. I'm a dude, athletic, and I need my strength, so no I won't do a full out 3 day fast, or a 40 day liquid fast, or anything. But I do want to do something that will test my will power, especially since I have poor gluttonous eating habits. Yesterday morning I had 52 ounces of tea within a 2-hour time slot in the morning, and that kept be pretty full until early dinner.Maybe I'll incorporate that in my diet somehow... Pardon me as I think out loud on here,.....
So I want most of my calories to come from breakfast, I'll have two breakfasts! :-)
*an hour later*
OK, I got side-tracked on trying to get our fireplace working. And I lost my train of thought, and I don't feel like writing about my discplinary training in eating anymore now. :-)
Later!
Peace.
Mark
Posted at 1/23/2004 12:25:25 pm by TheBojDotCom
Thursday, January 22, 2004
Christian Woman Wanted!!!
Calling all women who love the Lord...
OK, so I am totally willing to wait on the Lord, and be yieding and submissive to His plan and His timing. But I figure I put some feet (words) to my prayers. :-) I don't want to go after the easy women out there, who are the "bad apples on the bottom of the tree," no, I am willing to keep climbing up with God as my focus. And the way that I see it is that there's another woman out there that is climbing the same ladder, with the top being God. See, we both grow strong in our walks with the Lord and then meet at the top to continue in one strong mission together for Him. Ahhh, I like that...
Why I write now? Well I either want to accelerate the process of when our two paths cross, or am just sick of waiting; almost to the point that I do want to settle for my best option, per se. But I never want to do that. I want to find a girl who's gonna love Jesus more than me, a girl who is a prayer warrior, someone who likes physical training, too. It has "some value" you know. ;-) But godliness has value for all things, for this life and for the one to come.
So if there are any women of God out there, please let me know you exist. I'm not looknig for a girlfriend, or anything. All I'm asking for is for you to let me know that I am waiting and climbing a tree that does have some fruit, good fruit at the top. "Oh that I may climb up that palm tree and..." Ha, I couldn't hold it in.
Anyway, the day is going great. I had it planned out last night with one minor change: I decided to go home tomorrow, or Saturday night. But as for now, I've been bitten by the bug. The bug which makes me scan blogs online just to see if they've updated. Yeah, very productive, eh?
Welp, I'm out to do some laundry, sell a hamster, research the bike that I probably will never buy, and clean up my mail. But why would you care? :-) If you've read this much, write me a comment letting me know where your blog is. I'll at least read your most recent entry. :-) Bye!
Peace.
Mark
Posted at 1/22/2004 4:54:01 pm by TheBojDotCom
Wow, so someone actually read my last blog! Oh joy!
So last night, everything happenned as planned, until the end.... I closed up alll the programs, closed my laptop, put on my sleeping clothes, and had a great conversation with God. It was so needed, I loved it. Best thing though was falling asleep to dreams, and waking up to an alarm that I didn't mind.
Now I feel no shame at all when I fall alseep while talking to God. I mean imagine holding a child in your arms and while s/he's talking to you, they fall alseep. How awesome! Well I imagine me being that child in God's arms. :-)
So I'm ready about to go to the laptop, and then I remembered I was supposed to go talk to Him. So I do, and I lay back down on my bed. Next thing I know? I end up waking up again an hour later! Ha ha.
So slight alterations need to be made the next time that happens. Maybe I'll go get a bowl of cereal and make it a date with God. No radio, no TV. Yeah, that's what I'll do tomorrow morning. But I thought it was so excting that I was dreaming, cause I rarely ever dream. :-) It made me happy.
What made me even more happier was receieving a comment from Kat! Inconceivable? Never. Receieving a random comment from a random internet person letting me know that she has been blessed through what God's doing in my life is just a great prasie to God! He's working in so many lives we do not even fathom what's going on around us! Anyway, kudos to Kat, and anyone else that has been touched by my writings.
What's going on now? I guess my profile can change since I'm no longer a student. I GRADUATED!!! :-) What now? Well I did drive down to Florida 2 weeks ago, to New York this past weekend (and got my window smashed out), and I;ll be driving to Alabama next week. Many miles, yes, but lots of time to myself. I like the travels, and the sun sets/rises. And also the moutains that are cut out for the roads to go through them.
So, I'm so looking into getting a motorcycle, and I found one for only 1200. Problem is that it's red. I wanted a black one, to look like Arnold! :-) Ha ha, I love that guy so much. "I'm going to California to clean house!" :-)
Wow, I don't usually ramble on these things, but I guess I'm happy now. Let me change lanes and now see what God is saying to me, as I did yesterday....
"Mark,.... I'm glad that you're happy, but never be satisfied with this world, or with it's pleasures. They are only temporary, and you are only passing through. You are not home yet. I want to take you to places where you are to proclaim the good news, for my people are perishing because of lack of knowledge. That is all."
OK, so I didn't really feel like writing much, maybe because I'm just happy, and not really seeking God all too much. Like when a man is in a pit, no where to go but reach up, He reaches to God. Like prisoners turn their life to Christ because they've tried everything else, and fail. And that's also why it is nearly impossible for rich people to get into heaven because they feel that are self-sufficient, and not in need. Such a nasty messed up world! Sort of like how the healthy welthy people can afford health insuance, and the poor sick people cannot. Stupid U.S.
It's nearing midnight, and I still have noe plan for tomorrow. Lets figure one out, then go to bed, then have b-fast with God....
6:30 Breakfast with God
7 AIA Meeting
8 Meet with Phil
10 Kick and lift
11:30 Pack for home
Noon Leave
1:30 Arrive and stay the night
Ahh, this feels so much better to set a plan and follow it. I feel so much more productive governing the clock, rather than being governed by it. Bye for now.
Peace.
Mark
Posted at 1/22/2004 12:06:58 am by TheBojDotCom
Wednesday, January 21, 2004
This sucks.
This. This blog.
I'm not in denial. Writing blogs suck.
Especially if you start one up with the ambition of writing in it every day and making it so cool that everyone is reading it, and it becomes so popular so that it is on the top ten list of blogs on the front page of blogdrive.
Yeah, this sucks.
Usually I'm not the pessimistic type. Really, I'm not. Just this past weekend I drove to New York and slept in my car in a well lit parking lot, only to wake up and find my car window smashed and shattered. I put a piece of cardboard in it for my trip back to Michigan. My thoughts? I wasn't too attached to that window all that much anyway.
See, I really do try to find the possitive in things.
But this blog? SUCKS!
Why? Again, I had huge expectations, and they plummeted.
I can relate to my relationship to God. At times I'm so in love with Him and have a great passion and thirst for Him, and at other times, I turn away from Him, shut my ear to His voice. So up and down, and I don't want my relationship with the God of the universe to be up and down like a roller coaster. Why can't I have the passion for God as King David had, the man after God's heart? Paul would preach until the wee of the night, and would be punished so greatly for his love, Jesus.
Me? Oh, well, you know. I'd rather wake up and go check my e-mail. Then search for quotes to put on my away message. Then search for a motorcycle that I'm never going to buy. Then search the web on how to ride the motorcycle that I'm never going to buy. Then I get online insurance quotes for that motorcycle that I'm never going to buy. Then I.... yada yada. I find ways to use up my time. I really do. I'm good at that.
Again, maybe I'll express my minor pesimistic side on this blog and hopefully it turns into a focus, a purpose-driven blog. Really, it can be a place for me complaining and whining. Then that's when I hear Arnold's voice from Kindergarten Cop in my head saying, "Stop whining! You lack discipline!"
Yes I do, Arnold. I lack discipline. What is discipline? It's training. I lack training. Training in what? Slef-control. The ability to control myself, what I do, what I don't do, etc.
How do I get discipline? Well, according to Arnold, each time he blew his whistle, the kids would run, get a toy, and run back to where they were, without wasting time, all the while being purpose driven. Hmmmm.... If God plays Arnold in this discipline practice, ..... now we might be getting somewhere. God's saying to me right now, "You lack discipline!" And then follows up with an order....
He would be saying something on the lines of, "Mark. Finish what you are writing this very instant. Close your windows. Shut your lap top. Put on some sleeping clothes. Go lay on your bed. Talk to me. Tell me what's on your mind. Whine and complain to me. I love you and care for you. I created you, and I want feedback from the one I died for. I have every hair on your head counted for. Before the Earth was created, I'm already thought about your existence. Come to me, and I will give you rest for your soul, rest from the world of pain you are right now going through. Come to me, and you will be satisfied. Then, go to bed and sleep a deep sleep, with dreams of life. When you wake up, you shall not go to the lap top and check for e-mail. You will call on me, and say good morning. I will then tell you what you are to do that day, and what you are to meditate on from my Word to you. I cannot make your mind and heart be consumed with Me, it is your choice. But one you've tasted and seen that I am the Spring of Living Water, you will come to Me again and again, and not to the false water that only temporarily satisfies. Your laptop and interet will never satisfy you. Women will not satify you. Neither will football, food, or clothing. You were created to be filled by Me, and until you come to me in heaven, you are to get your fill of me on Earth. Now go, and practice these very commands I give you. I'll meet you in a couple minutes."
Wow, yeah, that definately sounds like a voice from God. Reminds me of Isaiah 30:21 -- Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, "This is the way; walk in it." The next verse talks about how we feel conviction and throw away that things we had replaced God with and how they are compared to with filthy rags.
God used yet again something sucky to be awesome! God is such a God of paradox's. The first shall be last... The leader shall be servant to all. He took the sign of death and changed its meaning to the sign of life (the cross). And he took this blog that sucked into a revival for me. May it serve a blessing to you as it did for me!
Peace.
Mark
Posted at 1/21/2004 1:11:57 am by TheBojDotCom
Monday, January 12, 2004
What's up now...
Last thing I read in the Bible: James 2:14-18 (faith and deeds)
Last thing I read out of the Bible: Man in the Mirror, chapter 20
Last time I prayed intently: Friday night, Jan. 9, 2003
Last time I prayed with someone: Today, at house interview, and at Athletes in Action (AIA) welcome back party / prayer & praise.
Last song sung to God, and when: "Here I am to worship"
Last verse memorized: Ephesians 6:10-18 (in the works)
Last woman of God I found interest in: Jenny
Most current prayer request : That God will provide me to minister as a kicker on an Arena Football team.
So I understand that I've really put off reading the Bible in the 52-day journey, but I still don't see why I can't continue the great pace I was going. Plus, I could put no pressure on myself so that I could read and stop at leisure to munch on Scripture whenever I want.
How I'm doing with God now? Well whenever I don't fill myself up with God, the living water, I tend to try and get full on other things, and that's usually when I excersize my compulsive gluttonous eating habits or start daydreaming about girls with love songs playing. Oh yeah, I've definitely been thirsty for "broken cisterns" as you can read about in Jeremiah 2:13.
My people have committed two sins:
They have forsaken me,
the spring of living water,
and have dug their own cisterns,
broken cisterns that cannot hold water.
So I will now, with a wide open schedule, place my morning time with God on number one priority. Right when I wake, 7 AM, I'll be up and about, grab a tea of a coffee, and my Bible, read a Psalm and relate with what David's going through, get into some deep prayer, and even do a Bible study of my own. I shall fill up on the Word of Truth, my Sword of the Spirit. Early in the morning I shall rise to Him and give my all.
Right now, as I search Arena Football for an opening kicker position, may I get full first on God, and not inulge in food, thinking about the ladies, even computer.
If you read this, I still don't know why, but hopefully it had served you as it has me.
It's all About God (AG)
Mark
Posted at 1/12/2004 12:50:56 am by TheBojDotCom
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